I think god is simply having too good of a time with me in Switzerland. I think my biggest weakness in life probably is pride, so to counter that, and get me on a path towards more humility – even after all the ups and downs in life. I must have too much pride left and God said, “You get to learn German!”
The new teacher in this class that I have is really part saint and a good teacher. Part of me wonders how much further along I would have been having her or Andi (the substitute teacher in my first class) teaching me from the start.
The problem is that my mind is not, nor has it ever really been wired for languages. This could be computer coding (except Cobol) and then while I can order coffee in 20 languages, I simply am not very good at learning them. It is a skill I tell my niece and nephew to learn a minimum of three. While English will get you around most of the world, having the ability to communicate fluently in two other languages will put you a step ahead of much of the USA workforce. Globalization is only going to make employment more difficult for the kids in the USA, but making more choices and conveniences available for the society as a whole.
But I think you can say goodbye to the idea of the American dream we knew as kids. There will be more of the have and much more of the have-nots.
Opinions aside, I really feel quite stupid trying to learn languages. I seem to understand what someone is saying, I can even read and watch a movie and get the idea, or shall I say, think I have an idea of what is going on. But when it comes to speaking – I might as well be a deaf mute.
What I want to do is speak and communicate, as then I can actually contribute and do a bit more while I am here.
Until then, all I get to do is learn more about what it is like to be an immigrant and deal with what they also deal with, the difference is that I have white colors skin and have to deal with the lame generalization of “you are an American.” I have to confess, that part gets tiring, as does the seeming universal desire that people don’t want to change much in life.
So. If you ever want to see a comedy, I should just video myself and the looks on my face as I go to German class. I think if Hollywood needs an actor to do deer in the headlights, clueless, lost in space, or oblivious – I have those down.
It is odd, as I get older, there still is a hunger and desire to work and bring new ideas out into the open. What I see in many of my counterparts is that they want to slow down, just live out life in peace…little change.
Now I wonder, is god teaching me about humility? Or change? Even the German teacher told me today, “mark, don’t ask why with language…. just do what we tell you, it will make sense one day. Asking why and trying to understand that will just confuse you.”
I laugh, all my life I seem to want to know “why” one does something. When someone can’t explain the why, I have a hard time accepting that they understand and know what they are doing.
Oddly, in this case, I will trust my teacher and pray that she is indeed correct.