I wish I really knew what the big man upstairs really wants from me. The more I ask and seek, the more my life seems really bizarre. Of course, I can say the world is a bit goofy, but the reality is that for me to shovel out all the stuff of the world inside my heart and try to change in a direction that logical makes little sense to the world – to actually love – not just friends, but enemies too.
The last part is surprisingly easy in how one can pray for an enemy or one that hurt you. Confucius has a great quote about revenge. “If you plan on seeking revenge, plan on digging two graves.”
I think Jesus and the New Testament was a bit more blunt. “Forgive your enemy and don’t be surprised if you get the snot kicked out of you – but…. yes, there is the huge “but”…you will grow.
I wish I knew how to explain the illogical elements of how it all works, but I can’t.
All I know is that while there are some remarkable catholic churches from anywhere form 800 to 2000 here, and various architecture styles which one can simply go in and marvel at the craftsmanship and design.
My favorites spot is the non-descript cappuchin monk church. While is old, it doesn’t have the seeming ostentatious trappings of some of the others. Since this country shuts down for lunch and I still seem to not quite understand the entire European way of working with all the pauses…
I found myself moving along one beam of light that came through the one stained glass window.
It was a bit humorous to walk into a dark space; yet, there was a streak of light illuminating the one pew.
“I guess that is where you want me to sit, huh?”
I am guessing many people think pushing deeper into spiritualism is a bit nuts. I have to admit, it really can be. It also can simply be an exercise in showing up because someone said you should. Call me the doubting Thomas, I asked for proof.
Yes, I received proof - from both sides. Both good and evil.
Perhaps that is why it is so easy to forgive and pray for an enemy – while it hurts – you simply don’t want them to go to that place where the pain never stops.
But as I read the pages, I thought, “how insightful, this is like it is written yesterday!”
The reality is that part was writing in 430 ad.
The problems were pretty much exactly the same then, as they are today.
Only we get the choice…go get sucked into the world, or not. Yes, much easier said, than done.
Back to furious typing of large document outlines.